Have you ever felt the sting from the betrayal of a friend? Let’s be real, words can’t explain how deep those wounds go and the amount of time it takes for those wounds to heal. I can tell you from experience that unless you are intentional about releasing people and yourself from that pain you will never truly enjoy your life. No matter how much time passes, sooner or later you will have to face that pain time and time again.
How do you move past the pain to release yourself when the person that betrayed you and the person you are sick of is YOU? Have you ever taken the time to reflect back on the decisions you have made and continue to make that put in a position of lack, loneliness, hurt and/or pain?
- How many bad relationships do we have to be in before we realize, I need some help with this thing?
- How many times do we have to go shopping to impress others before we realize that we could have invested that money in our dream or saved that money for our retirement?
- How many times do we have to rob Peter to pay Paul before we realize that we are not good at managing money?
- How many times do we have to fly off the handle when we don’t get our way before we realize that we have control issues?
- How many times do we have to talk about people who are doing what we know we should be doing before we realize that we are lazy and jealous?
- How many times do we have to make commitments and then not keep them to realize that our integrity and character needs some fine tuning?
- How many times do we have to say “The Lord knows my heart” before we admit to ourselves that we don’t really have the discipline to do what we know is right?
- How many times will we allow fear to paralyze us before we get tired of staying where you are?
- How many times do we have to worry about something before we admit to ourselves that we just don’t trust God?
I could go on and on but I think you get the picture.
I remember the day I looked myself in the mirror and shouted to the top of my lungs, “I’m Sick of You!” I had never cried so much in my entire life. I begged God to please save me from myself because this is one thing I could not blame on the devil.
I did it…I made the bad decisions, I trusted the wrong people, I told the lies, I was the one with the control issues, I was the one with the bad attitude. Yep, that was me and let me me tell you – I was so sick of me. I had to get delivered from me and I thank God I was wise enough to know that I could not deliver myself.
I wish I could tell you that in that moment I was delivered but I would be lying. What I can tell you is that I knew in that moment that God heard me. The Holy Spirit full of wisdom comforted me with these words, “Girl, get up off that floor….clean up your face and go to bed…you goin be alright:) It was as if God was just waiting for me to be get real and get honest with myself.
THOUGHT FOR TODAY:
How Sick Are YOU?
SCRIPTURE: Psalms 138:8
“The Lord will perfect that which concerns me; Your mercy, O Lord, endures forever; Do not forsake the works of Your hands.”
ACTION STEP:
Take a good look in the mirror and verbally shout “I’m so sick of YOU ______________?”
You fill in the blank. You might be surprised how good you will feel afterwards:)
According to a great poem…We are our worst enemies! I concur that I have had to look at the woman in the mirror one upon a time and say the same thing. It was a deep cleansing. However, I have to continue to die to myself daily, by examining myself daily and reflecting on my actions throughout the day. I have definitely had to call myself on some things and upon the leading and help of the Holy Ghost begin to dismiss those actions from my life. But, I know, we have to get sick of self!…We must be honest with ourselves, if we are to be any good to anyone else during our lifetime, which is but a vapor!….Great discussion
Thanks for stopping by and sharing Ms. Jones. I think we can all trace some of the greatest breakthroughs we have had came at a time when we were most honest with ourselves.